Interview experience...

Hai though not feeling very well, manage to drag myself to the interview... N to me, the interview is very funny... Perhaps it's been sometime since I last been to an interview, sort of lost touch with the tecniques??? U can judge n comment after reading my experience :-D

The interview started around 2.05pm with only 1 interviewer... N the interviewer is consider one of the higher ranked in the Asia Pacific region (Spore is the base for the region)... So the first question to me was about how much I know about the company... Well, I gave a brief account of what I knew and so he started to explain more about the company and industry... Normally, most interviews I attended will prefer asking the interviewee to talk abt themselves first before the company start going into details abt the job, so as to get a better idea abt the candidate... The guy did the reverse... He went into details abt the job and career development path before I was asked to intro abt myself. After that, I was asked to do a brief intro, which not much questions were raised abt my past experience n education, nor any proof of documents or identification was requested...

After that, some generic questions were raised such as what type of work environment do I like, is travelling around fine with me and how many years do I think that a promotion is possible in the company etc... So far so good, up until when I mentioned abt last minute work and stress induced by it... It is by far, considered the only disagreeable point that we had... N the funny things is, I expect that more or less, a full-stop had been made to that issue since disagreeability was laid clearly out... But well, surprise surprise... He actually start to explain about the last minute and stress associated with the position!!! Umm... I expect that there is no need for the company to explain so much to a candidate so I was a little stunned... Start to sound a little "fishy" to me now...

Den after that, renumeration package was discussed... I was asked abt my current package and was also informed abt the general package that the company offers... Not as good as my current package but the career development path made up for the differences... Towards the end of the interview, as a form of courtesy, I asked how would he described a suitable candidate for the job since he more or less covered everything that I need to know for the moment... After answering that question, I was asked if I think if I possessed the qualities that the company is looking for... After my ans, I was informed that they still have some candidates to interview and the result will be out by early next wk, no matter good or bad news, i will stil get a call...

N a funny question was asked... Did I apply for any other positions or arranged for other interviews... After I answered "yes", den he said that it is fair enough... Well, to me, that is a redundant question... Under normal circumstances, even if there r no other applications for other jobs or interviews lined up, most ppl will still ans "yes" hahaha...

So to sum up the interview, I tink they are a little desperate in looking for someone to fill the position... Or perhaps the interviewer simply had a different style... End up, we seem to be like convincing each other of something... I tried to convince him my suitability to the job while he tried to convince me tat the last minute thing is not as bad as I think... Well... perhaps to the company, I am considered a potential candidate but since we have our differences and disagreeable point, I won't be holding high hopes...

Perhaps you can drop me some after thoughts after you read it... Btw, the interview lasted for 30min only... I was pretty surprised about the bulk of information we manage to share during this period of time though ;-)

Haiz tired... Still haven start preparing for my interview...

Went on MC today... Still very tired... Seems like the virus refuse to leave me alone :-(

I got 3 days to prepare for the interview but I only covered a little of what I intended to do... Ah... Sianz... Looks like either I got to stay up a bit late or wake up early tomo to prep... Luckily I asked for an afternoon slot :-) Well, very tired... i guess the fever, sore throat and achiness is getting into me... Haiz... wonder will I be able to concentrate...

N there is another interview on Friday... As i am writing this entry, i am asking someone to guess about the job, the industry... Hahaha let's see how long tomato need to make a right guess... Ok I am being bad, 'cos this is going to be tough ;-)

If I had not told you before, perhaps u r up for a guess too... Hint: Nothing to do with Science... Job scope: Something that I like hahaha... But most probably something that most ppl won't like...

But anyway, the next job I am aiming for, most ppl would rather not do it hahaha ;-) oki hope that I can give some hopeful news after my interview...

Sick Sick... Wkend wasted

Haiz... stil a bit sick after resting for the wkend... Hmm... wonder if i will be well enough to go to work...

Sort of having fever and on-off throat inflammation but basically bone aches n tiredness... Guess it is the med n immune system doing their job... Hope the virus is snuffed out... Else don noe if i wil be well enough for tues challenge...

Luckily, tis is going to be a short week... With my leave and P.H. on thurs, i guess things will work out... Oki i guess tat's for all now... Going to surf net for awhile n hit the sack... Nitez...

Going for job interview next tues... N thank you Darling n Mas

Just as I was thinking if I should leave my job given my new target to hit, I got a call for an interview... Well, not sure if that is a sign but I was surprised they would call me... It was one of the least expected ones...

But I guess it is not exactly promising as they seem to have a different agenda... Perhaps they are planning to have more than 1 round of interviews so that they can screen through first and select potential candidates to move to next round... Cos they actually didn't request that I bring my actual copies of certificates or documents but just to bring myself... Umm sounds a bit funny right??? Hahaha anyway, I already prepared myself that perhaps it will be an unfruitful trip.

Shared with 2 of my closer colleagues regarding this interview... Their current job is their first job... They shared the same the sentiments that it is not their type of job and they are not sure can they handle interviews again if they were to leave tis job... Well, I guess when 1 gets too use to the job, that is 1 of the problem... Worry about changes and new challenges...

And for some reason, I got the virus again... Got sore throat since tues, fever since wed nite... Stil went to work anyway as it is housekeeping day :-D took paracetamol and sera peptidase to relieve symptoms... stil not feeling too well but getting better :-D

Had arrange to meet with Darling to vent some of my frustration... N Darling, thanks for listening and understanding... Hahaha felt much better :-D Mas, thanks for your concern... Don't worry, I won't get myself worried or angry till sick. It is not worth it ;-)

Got 2 interesting books today :-D Time to read n relax and zzz...

Bad news and good news...

Sob Sob... My W.V. for the year had raised from 38K to 70K!!! Ah... ... ... Unfair!

To think that I juz did 4 wks of high level W.V. and my target setting end up becoming almost twice of my role's W.V.!!! Haiz... can she set a more realistic target or at least give me a more stable environment to try and achieve??? Soon I will be heeding my colleague's advice on using trolley to store my stuff in order to facilitate my transfer around the 2 labs...

Now I can "cry" and "scold" my boss with my other colleague... She is in an even worst situation than me... Haiz... At least I got other avenues to achieve my W.V. but she has none... N most of the work she do is not listed as a KPI or target... Haiz... Learnt a lesson today... Your rock bottom might not be the worst.

But looking at the other way... That means my saltish days are over!!! Hahaha I got reason to "push" others to hand me some work :-D Next week will be interesting... We shall see what is going to happen hahaha :-D

Oki go check something first before heading home... Most prob will update tomo ba...

Tired but enlighten...

Yawnz... Hmm... Not having enough zzz recently... But so far so good, at least I am stil awake... Juz that it is another saltish day... Tired...

Finally understood why I feel like as though I am running away from something when I tink of leaving... Guessed I am afraid of getting use to things... Perhaps acquiring a habit frightens me...

Meaning of the job is another reason... I guess no other job can give me the satisfaction of knowing that you are making a difference to someone's life... Knowing that your amount and accuracy of knowledge is going to play a crucial part in determining life and death... But what accompany these are pressure and tiredness... The pressure of knowing that you can become a murderer because of carelessness... The tiredness of having to be constantly on your toes to prevent as many mistakes as possible, though we all learn from our mistakes and it is part and parcel of work...

There is a part of me which understands, that, that is what I like... But perhaps that is not I want... Or perhaps I am too tired to be bother with the meaning of the job... I guess I am starting to believe that leaving to gain other experience may do more good... Or perhaps after 1.5 yrs, I am still not able to fully align myself to provide closure... In my heart, I feel tat the lost, the hurt is already there... A closure helps but it is not something that can be mesured and gauged... So somehow I am lost... As the picture gets clearer, I think some form of peace and calm will reach me soon ;-)

Umm though got some good news but the fringes that comes with it makes it sound like bad news hahaha... Those who know will understand what I mean when I write this ;-D

Oki... If I am free later, will provide more updates and if I am even more saltish, may start to prep soap opera...

A saltish day passed... Some questions to ponder...

Hey the reason why this entry was written at this timing in my office is not because I got things to do... The day had been very saltish and the I am simply writing a blog to kill time as i wait for my friend whom I am meeting for dinner n chit chat session...

Haiz... heard another "shotgun" episode today... Umm... seems like there are quite alot of couples heading this direction... Each couple have to face different types of problem and it is not easy... N their families have to face these problems as well... Haiz... Can only hope for the best...

But that prompt me to think about something... If I were to face this situation, what will I do???
1) Get married
2) Break off and abortion
3) Abortion
4) Keep the child but don't get married first
5) Give birth than get married later

Wa there are at least 5 choices that pop up in my head as I typed!!! Umm... i guess choices are based on situations and preferences...

Looking at 2 couples whom i know that are "shotgun" cases, one had reached solid grounds while the other seems to be breaking up... But both situations are different so I guess the same decision made under different circumstances leads to different outcome...

Will stop here for this topic... Running late for my appointment hahaha...

Snap snap... Cut cut... Pack pack...Squeeze squeeze... A "bloody day"

Hello hello hello :-D Was bone tired yesterday after standing for almost a day hahaha... Been taking photos and learning some new stuff... So guess what I learnt??? Cutting of bones to extract bone marrow and cutting of muscles...

It was the first time that I looked at cutting bone marrow... Muscles were ok basically, saw quite a bit when I was still a student... But a sliver of decomposed muscle is something new hahaha... it's not as grossed as any of you might think of ;-) tink of medium cooked beef when sliced open. The bone marrow is a whole new thing. 'Cos the sample submitted is not standardised but depends on situation. Manage to see a range of it, it reminds me of food as well... The cutting was tricky. I was assisting a senior staff with documentation and I learnt alot from her:-D

The joke of the day was the other team that was working with us. His blade got stuck in the bone while cutting and suddenly you can see everybody moving out of his vicinity hahaha... Seems like everyone is frightened of the bone flying into their face :-D I was standing pretty far so I got a good view while maintaining my safety. The underlying statement of the day from him was: No bah kut teh or mixed pig organ soup for the week :-D

Overall, learnt loads of things yesterday... But the standing nearly killed my legs... After that, took sometime to pack them back into the bag before relaxing and slowly shake my butt to do some other not so urgent stuff :-D Drag my time working, eatting and gossiping till 8pm before heading home with my colleague.

Umm... reaching home, I saw some more blood and pus filled bumps looking so tender that it is too irresistable to squeeze! Hahaha end up sueezing out 3 more bumps... Though with large amount of dead skin now but at least the bumps are gone :-D

Thought I will conked out at 10pm but some how I was too tired to zzz... Went to watch tv till 12am...N the shows were :CSI and Cold case... Luckily I didn cont'd to watch Bones... But those 2 already made up my "bloody day" hahaha :-D

Been writing lots of "gross" stuff recently... Hope later I will have time to update my blog with some other not so gross stuff hahaha... After all, I am very "saltish" for now ;-)

Soap Opera... Continuation...

This soap opera's progress might be a bit slow cos the male and female lead are not really doing their job... Anyway, they still provided me with some ideas of how the soap opera may continue hahaha :-D

Well. sometimes, it is hard to be the decision maker... Cos you will have to bear the responsibility no matter it is good or bad... If it turns out bad, things may go out of control easily, especially if most hands are raised in the same direction... So things move too slowly and a "3rd party" became important... The "3rd party" will act as the catalyst for the reaction (getting chemistry here) and hopefully, things will turn out well... Hey even a great chemist cannot predict the reaction without knowledge of the behavior of the properties... Especially that the properties here, refers to human thinking and character...

So who will be the catalyst for this reaction and what will the outcome be??? Umm... Some "twists" had been suggested... What if these "twists" can truly be added to the scenario??? Hey I mean the real life, actual scenario ;-) If those can be added... umm... I think the soap opera will truly be very very soapy and juicy too hahaha :-D

Well, the guessing part is sweet yet tormenting... The courage of moving forward is tempting yet makes one take a step back... The know yet not willing to express is a question with no answer... The worry of being the vulnerable after expressing is a big hurdle to cross... I think these are sufficient reasons to make this soap opera interesting... Hahaha :-D

Hey all are welcome to suggest twists and plots, no gurantee whether it will come to life but nevertheless, you will have some entertainment :-D By the way, there is really a soap opera in making, jux that the progress is very very very slow so some form of entertainment is required for the moment... Who knows, maybe your idea might inspire them to speed up the progress??? :-D

Squeezing of pimples...

Ok I know the topic sounds gross or yuckz to some people but forgive n bear with me... Recently pimples, soap opera and finding a new job are the main foci of my life hahaha!!!

I was pretty fed-up with the pimples that are popping on my left face... I counted and there are 11 of them in total! And my hair starts to irritate the right side of my forehead... So now, there are 4 new ones popping up there... My previous episode was even worst than my current situation but 1 month into the med, no more new kids on the block and the old ones are healing well, though the peeling is quite bad for the "dead" pimples... Haiz... The Doc had noticed the problem and he had pointed out that dust and irritants are the main cause for the slow healing...

So I started squeezing on the red and painful ones... Ok, I can "hear" some comments about scarring and serious inflammation... Hahah but no worries, I picked those which are real tender and disinfect my tools properly :-D Ended up, I was shocked by the results...

I got lots of dark red blood instead of pus!!! Well, initially I tried on 1 that is real swollen and tender. With some gentle probing, the dry skin came off and some fluids ooz out... Den with application of some force, "pop" came out splatters of blood and only little pus... I let the blood flowed freely till it stopped before applying antiseptic... My apologies if I caused you to throw up or lost appetite...But... I sort of like the process;-)

That is when I realize that not all the "pimples" are the normal pus filled type, rather that perhaps the infection had gone but the blood and other fluids from the infection remained... Umm... after the success with the big big one, I tried another few small ones today... I got almost the same results... I guess the blood and "gore" either needs external mechanical force of bursting it or it will need some time before it subsides...

Hahaha being the impatient and typical "nu yi yue zhe wei rong" type, I guessed I will speed up the process with mechnical bursting and use antiseptics n whitening products to reduce further inflammation and hyperpigmentation ba ;-)

"Soap Opera"... New Season

Hey hey "soap opera" is here again... New story line and new characters... Starting from today hahaha :-D The reason for the inverted commas are simply that it will going to be funny but you never know when it will be soapy again...

There was a gathering fo 6... There was only 1 guy who is basically the new kid in the block. The organiser, for some unknown reasosns, asked him along... This guy arrived while we were having dinner... N of cos he had the seat next to the female lead... Hey it was not pre-arranged ok... A guy and a gal had already seated before we arrived... The female lead chose to sit beside the gal, I chose to sit beside the guy and the other guy chose to sit beside me so that only left with 1 seat beside the female lead ;-) See, no plots here ok...

I did the intro briefly for the group since I knew the male lead and the female lead seems too shy to do it... After which, only 1 person seems to be doing the talking, which is me... So you can imagine how the atmosphere of the table is like... Can't blame the rest though... Cos 1 woke up early and rushed to meet us, the other 2 were quite busy with work... I was on full day leave and the female lead was on half day...

After which, female leads phone keep ringing with SMSes... Well, the tone used was quite funny so it caught the attention of the guy sitting beside me and the gal sitting beside her... It soon became the joke of the table that her phone is ringing too frequently hahaha... Eventually, it was timed and announced that it was ringing more n more frequently! From 3 to 1 min hahaha...

The juicy part starts here... Seems like the male lead's phone is also having SMSes quite frequently... When he shuts his phone, female lead's phone will start ringing... After the female lead shuts her phone, his phone starts shortly after... Umm start to sound a bit fishy ;-) Half the table were starting to look at them with almost the same tots running through our minds... The only guy not in the picture was simply becos he was too tired and drained from work... So he was pretty much left out from the picture hahaha...

Den after much disturbing, they finally started talking and we all start to whisper among ourselves too;-) hee hee... but of cos the sad thing is that half the ppl left early and in the end, only the female and male lead n myself went to drink hahaha... I became the big light bulb and hahaha I sort of enjoy being the light bulb... Got more opportunity to observe for possible developments;-)

For the moment, most ppl suspect that they have feelings for each other and seems like the guy is pretty interested hahaha :-D so let's c if this "soap opera" will become fairy tale!

Shopping trip...

Oki, first, today there will be more than the 2 entries that I tot I will be writing... Cos somone wanted me to write Soap Opera - New season :-D So, this entry will be talking about my shopping trip!!!

To be exact, it started yesterday... The shopping bug bit me when I saw so many things on sale!!! N the items on sale are current season which makes it more attractive than GSS!!! I guess GSS gave me bad impression as the shops tend to sale off-season items or there are no sizes available... Got 2 pairs of slip-ons yesterday... As for today... 2 pairs of shoes, 2 black tops, 200g of Leonidas chocolates and some The Body Shop products in 2 hours flat :-D

Hahaha from the rate I am spending $$, I will be very broke by the end of the month. Must exercise control and Tomato, guess I will have to go out less with you cos you enjoy looking at my struggle than helping me to curb;-) But sometimes it is good to have guys shopping together, esp guys like Tomato... Cos they can help you to carry things and "kai lu" :-D Hahaha...

Umm speaking of struggle... Well, the struggle was more for the chocolates and tops... Cos the shoes can be claimed if I wanted to and The Body Shop products are a bit like necessity for the moment as my skin is peeling from the dryness caused by the med plus some bad bumps that need antibacterial stuff...

The chocolates were sort of like pampering myself or rather my taste buds... N the tops were mainly because I felt that I got nothing to wear for work... Tat is partially true as I do have many others to choose from but jux that I need an additional jacket or something as I have a conservative boss...

So end up, I feel that I should have gotten a nice, cute little jacket instead of 2 more tops as I am writting my blog... And I could have forgo the chocolates and got another top or pool the $$ for the tops and choco together and buy a good jacket too... But I know that at the end of it, I stil pretty much enjoyed the exp of trying and buying the tops and chocs ;-)

So for the next month, I will not be thinking of my pralines which I jux finished last week... N I won't be worrying about being hot when I put on 3 layers (including the lab coat) hahaha :-D But... of course... there is always another oppotunity for me to buy the jacket since shrunk jackets are in season for the moment... Luckily I do not favoured much of the big n long tops that are currently the hottest in town... I keep having this idea that I looked short in it when I try on one of those... I do have 1 piece n I only wore it i tink 3 times???

The cover shoes are something which I had been trying to avoid for sometime... Round shoe heads... But I really love the softness for the black and the design for the white... Simple and ok not exactly timeless, but something that I can match with shorts and skirts... Jeans will be a bit tough 'cos they will really make me look short hahaha... But luckily I had those sandals so I suppose it should be fine... Versatile enough...

But seriously, from this shopping trip, I realise one thing... I am not satisfied with my current physical appearance, as in body... I am still too young to be jux complaining n with Tomato's psycoing, I am seriously looking at exercising hahaha... Even if for the wrong reasons, it is time that I should start ;-)

N as for my skin prob wise, though it is peeling badly and there r still bumps that have yet to stop popping... But at least it is saving me $$ on skincare for the moment... But in future, it might get more expensive hahaha... Well to sum up for my shopping trip, I got most of the stuff that I want except for a jacket and a bag hahaha... So maybe soon you will be getting long story on shopping trip again ;-)

Not a very fun gathering... ... ...

Took a FULL day leave on Fri!!! Hahaha luckily I leave in the morning too. Got fever on thurs night which left me pretty exhausted on fri morning... Slept till 12 plus before I woke up for the first time and realise I am very late for lunch with Darling!!! Hahaha though we started our shopping spree late and didn exactly have a good start but we manage to get what we were looking for... SHOES :-D we got 2 pairs each, one of similar design and covered shoes for her, red pair of sandals for me ;-)

As usual, we were late again for our gathering hahaha... But it was not as fun as I thought, guessed I am a little disappointed... Perhaps the group is a little bigger den our usual bunch or perhaps most ppl are a little tired... Haiz... So end up Darling and I were the very last to leave after a round of drinks... I guess next time should get a smaller bunch and those who are energetic enough to stay up hahaha... Or mayber Saturday might be better???

Umm... going shopping with Tomato later hahaha... Saw a few stuff that I might want to try or get yesterday... Hope I won't spend too much today ;-)

Hopefully got 2nd part later after I get home hahaha :-D maybe can put up some pics to show my stash ;-D and share about my pimple story hahaha...

Funny funny company...

Umm... today a bit free... later will need to ask my boss to sign my request form for me... Den now waiting for ppl to finish chking my stuff hahaha... One word... Bored...

Just received a call from an Insurance Broker Company... Well, I don't recall applying stuff with them but perhaps I did??? Anyway, I might be going over for a chit chat tomo since I had plans to go on leave... But quoting source, "unsure of reliability of company" hahaha... Anyway, we shall see how ba :-D

Haiz... so sianz... Thinking of changing... But how sure am I for the change???

Will have part 2 later hahaha...

A bit tired... Emotionally... Updates on Soap Opera

Hahaha been a bit down recently, don't really feel like blogging... Perhaps having some quiet time now is better den throwing everything out??? I guess I am lugging too much worries which burdens and weighed me down... Been feeling quite helpless sometimes but yet those are things which are not within my control.

I guess perhaps hitting a plateu in work life and coupled with being sick makes everything worst... N especially my skin problem... Sob sob... Been quite worried that it will not heal... The redness and bumps are still quite bad despite 1 month into the med already... Seems like somehow, my skin is building resistant or perhaps exposure to some stuff makes it heal much more slower...

Maybe I should put in more effort in job hunting... Umm... Hahaha I guess having something more dynamic is better... Been too stagnant in my work recently... Getting bored and tired of the environment... Especially with such Bosses... Was just mentioning about having some quiet time and here I am, throwing out stuff... Hahaha shall not bored you people out...

Updates on Soap Opera
Male lead appears to have really found a new job! And female lead expressed that she will minimise or rather have no contact with male lead after both of them leave... So sad... Male lead had tendered too... And apparently, some of their colleagues already sense that somethings are not right... Of course, with the combined 6th sense and observation coverage of the overwhelming female population in their department, it is hard for them to "hide" the truth ;-) So information had been swapped around since the "ending" had already shown n they all both leaving.

Haiz I guess this can be a bad example for managers to show their staff why they implement the "no couples in the same office" rule... Umm but it is quite sad that they are more or less no longer friends... Are platonic friendships that hard???

Was in good mood... Now in very bad mood...

Sob sob... my skin seems to be getting worst n worst :-( What if the medicine fails to work this time... Haiz... 2nd month into the med but new ones keep popping out and some of the old ones not healing well... Someday I think I will be crazy enough to go for invasive procedures... Ahhhh... Pissed off...

Was in very good mood earlier, though I noticed that my skin is getting worst through the day. Heard the latest of the soap opera yesterday. Well, it is indeed soapy... Both male and female lead decided to quit their jobs...

Male lead decides to quit some weeks before... But so far, no one had heard any news about his internal transfer or his new job... When female lead told him that she will be tendering on Monday (which is today), he being more practical (i guess), suggested that she stayed since the course won't be starting till Aug 07. He mentioned that he will be leaving soon too and that she should be staying to save up some $$ for future use.

Female lead is like a child, wants a stress-free life, go study without worries on $$$ and other stuff. So her relative managed to persuade her mum to sponsor her for full time studies so off she went. There is nothing wrong in that up to this point, the funny thing is, she have not even registered for the course yet!!! She had a background in admin studies but the course she wanted to do is early childhood education, therefore, with her background, it is safer to apply first. What's more, the course is commencing in Aug 07...

Seems like male lead is trying to either run away or trying to save the female lead embarassment at work place. I think the female lead seems to be running away too. To me, she seems guilty of something by running away like this. And true enough, my Darling words gave me the answer.

Apparently, her rejection over SMS was really hurting... She actually wrote that she had never liked him and as mentioned before, she told her friend to tell him too... Well, in fact that is not the truth... Cos, she did admit to Darling before that she had some sort of feelings for him, just that he didn make any moves and shortly after that, she had a crush on someone else... Haiz... Hope she is not playing hard to get... Rather she is unsure or maybe pissed off by the "dumbness" of the male lead...

Hahaha sometimes I am glad that I am the straight-forward kind... Else I think I will have more "volcano" popping up on my face :-D

Not in the mood...

Haiz i tink being sicked had drained me of my energy and brain power... Not really in the mood to blog...

Umm, as expected, have to take another month of med for skin... N from the looks of it, doc seems to have some things tat he wanted to say but chose not to... But I guess he is trying to keep mum till he can be sure or when the time is right??? Oh anyway, the cold sweat thing might be linked to low B.P. n blood glucose, cos i have such history so perhaps the med is not the direct cause... Sent my contacts for servicing, but, seems like it is not in very good condition...

One good thing over this wkend, I manage to zzz for 12 hrs from fri night to sat morning hahaha :-D At least that gave me the energy to get out of the house to do some serious stuff... Finally crashed back home after picking some interesting books from the lib... Decided to give myself a break from the com... settled myself n read till my body screeched, announcing time to go zzz... Reason for no blog entry yesterday ;-D

Later still need to go out and pick up dinner for Mother's Day... Umm maybe I will come up with a second entry later... Better go get some lunch first...

Oh yeah another wkend ;-)

Hey hey is Friday!!!! Hahaha and tomo is payday :-D

Well, just finish reading my Darling's blog... Umm feel sad for her... Haiz... It is not a nice feeling to be forced to choose... N like YY said, guessing can torment... So all involved are being affected in one way or another... But... it is FRIDAY!!!! So let's forget the unhappiness for the week and enjoy the wkend...

Easier said den done though... haiz, will need to go back to doc tomo... Got problem with the medication... Stopped the med but the fever n achiness came back... Take the med n I start to break into cold sweat and tremble... Oh... N the med seems to be causing my existing flare ups on my skin to become worst (anti-inflammation drugs shld help to bring down)... Sob sob... Last 2 weeks been very unlucky... Eye prob and unknown cause of fever...

So tomo cannot go shopping... At the most can only go library to return books n send my contact lens for servicing... But i tot of asking mas if he wan to watch Retribution tomo... Haiz felt bad to have broke my promise to him... Thinking back, to watch movie on a wkend is a bit wasteful hahaha... Guess I should still stay home or go somewhere nearby ba... Perhaps the furthest I will go is woodies ba... Can shop around a bit... Or should I make a trip down to Orchard for some serious walking n shopping???

Oh yeah speaking of Orchard... Thanks to YY for her reminder of changes to skincare regime... Well, I did change something and I forgot all abt it!!! Hahaha... perhaps I shld change back to my old brand, though it is ex :-( Haiz...

C wat the doc has to say for my current situation ba... Must remember to set my alarm hahaha :-D

Soap opera ended... N in a bad note...

As expected, the soap opera ended in an anti-climax yesterday nite... Female lead decided not to go for the event tonight and chose one of the worst possible methods to reject the male lead...

Haiz... SMS maybe a good tool when you need to consolidate your thoughts before spitting it out but... personally I feel that it is a bit too insensitive to use it to reject someone... And another thing... Haiz why must she asked a 3rd party to tell him straight in the face with words such as "she will never like you"... Oh so sad...

Haiz, i is so cruel to have been rejected like this... Anyway, I pity my darling... Sandwiched between 2 very funny ppl with such problems is not very funny... And I think they didn realise that they are inconveniencing others with their problems... Emotional trash don't get recycled, it just gets bigger... Esp if the recipient is not willing to accept it...

Well, Darling ah... Haiz... I can only lend u a listening ear now... 'Cos you are never very good at handling emotional trash... N your negative feelings always overflow to after work hours... Feel free to tag me if I am not online... As you know, I don't have my own com at work ;-D

Wonder can they so be friends??? Umm... I guess that will be Soap Opera Part 2...

Updates

Hahaha finally... there is work!!! :-D

As usual, my boss, who was looking high and low for me yesterday, sent me an email 8 hours later, telling me some stuff that are well, not so urgent... Anyway went looking for her to confirm that she has nothing else to add to the email... N of course, there is nothing to add hahaha :-D

And a big thank you to my dearest colleague, Ms Tan Koon Puay, who advised me against bringing all my stuff down because "you never know when you will be up again"... n true enough, I will be up again for 1 week... looks like i have to keep my belongings in a cardbpard box for easy transferring... Plus, it is good practice for someone who have thoughts of leaving ;-D

Was telling Koon Puay earlier during tea break that I have 3rd tots (previous entry on 2nd tots)abt leaving this year... I was asked by the good memory and sharp Ms Tan about y since I admit I am one of those who will quit after developing such tots... N of cos I told her about how I feel that I am like running away from something by quitting... Haiz... the grand question is I don even know what I am running from... n I am thinking of going to Europe for a tour around Oct... So having leave and a job to come back to is a good idea... That eventually nurtures the idea of staying till next year, at least till I get my bonus to recuperate from my loss of considerable wealth if I go for the trip... hahaha :-D

So now, as I am waiting for my stuff to come back from registration, I have alot of time on hand to think and wonder about stuff... Perhaps my mind is working too hard on these issues that I keep getting sick recently... Speaking of which reminds me of something... Yesterday, for some reason, quite a number of my frenz met with problems regarding work... n they are from pretty diverse industries... KK n Koon Puay met with funny problems with insufficient equipment n stuff not working well, Darling got scolded first thing in the morning for faults tat r not hers, YY got to clear up stuff which just happen to be there because someone used the lab under her charge n got to face a funny senior... Haiz...

Well seems like we all got our own load of stuff to carry... N tat reminds me of the grand finale of the soap opera by darling's colleagues... Hopefully, it will show on time tomorrow and that there is no anti-climax scenaris such as having one of the lead characters running away wor :-D Haiz... latest developments heard are that she seems to be frightened of him, because of what he did to his Ex.

Umm, I can't really think of what he did that can be so "terrifying" to her 'cos apparently she mentioned that she was attracted to him because of his gentlemaness... well, if what is "frightening" her are only actions that are pertaining to things that happen before/during the relationship, den I wonder if those are some actions or stuff that are consider, umm, normal in a relationship??? Well, if it is after the relationship, den what could he have done to let her become so frightened but yet still be a close friend to him??? I tink it is simply ironical that you can be frightened of him yet be such a close friend to him and allow yourself to spend time with him and let him see you home...

Every couple whom started out as friends will definitely go through a period of uncertainty... They will wonder if it is the right decision and if the feelings are of love and not any other... We are all afraid of losing our close friends, there is no timidity in admitting that we all want company of the people we love/like. And there is no weakness too, in admitting that you like/love someone, no matter what others might say. 'Cos eventually, the happiness that comes with it is yours. Perhaps it is easy to say but difficult to do but you never know if you don't try. Sometimes, a 3rd party might be instrumental in helping the relationship though. Just a warning, please don't get involved any further Darling, 'cos I prefer that we both sit down together with popcorn and soda to look at soap opera hahaha :-D

Sick again... N alot of time on hand to think about things

Haiz... sick again... this time fever with rashes, probable cause could be respiratory infection but rashes could not be explained... last wk is eye problem, this wk is infection... haiz...

Finally the long long soap opera of my darling's collegues is coming to an end... but... I tink a part 2 is coming soon hahaha... well, many ppl have chipped in their opinions and a big Thank you to them :-D hahaha looks like they will have to settle their differences else they will never come together no matter how much they like each other...

Here are the opinions collected yesterday(cont'd from previous entry on this soap opera):
Opinion 1: If you like someone, you should let the other person know.
Opinion 2: What is the point of telling the other person you like him/her when you already know him/her will reject you?
Opinion 3: If you like the person, it dosen't matter if the person dragged for ages before popping the question.

I guess, love relationship is a funny thing... certain things only the couple will know, certain things only outsiders can see... umm... tiring... I hope that my next relationship will not be this bad or worst... Just looking at it is tiring enough, going thru it will be real terrible I guess... ... ...

And for some reason, my boss is looking for me...twice already, in the lab... I think she must have funny things to ask me or funny things to point out to me or got knives/arrows aimed at me over the SO meeting they had yesterday... looks like I must get ready my resignation letter before it is too late hahaha... As the chinese saying goes, "ci di bu yi jiu liu" ;-)

But thinking back, sometimes i felt that my decision to leave is like running away, running away from something. The issue is, if I am running, I don't even know wat I am running from... And what thing/s that I am so afraid of that I have to run away??? Umm... well, at the moment, I can only confirm that I am unhappy here n it does not have what I want in the next few years... My second tots could have arised from the fact that I am not here for tat long n most ppl have advised against leaving now... Most encouraged me to stay for some time, maybe to the 2 yr mark... but I am tired... tired of the "nothing-to-do" time n having to face crappy questions all the time... n having to deal with the allergy that arise from masks... haiz...

Recently thought of going to Europe... Popped the question to darling n Mas... Well they are ok... Jux abt $$ n leave issue... locations wise, Mas, as usual, "U decide", darling gave me 3 different locations tat are far far apart hahaha... Anyway, it is not confirmed yet... since darling n me thought of leaving our current jobs n Mas just started his new job... Perhaps we will go somewhere nearer???

N it still came as a surprise that Mas might want to do a Drug part time degree or BA degree hahaha... All along I tot he wanted to do Engineering degree... Umm ppl do change over time... Hope that things do get settled over time...

Haiz... Tired... when will things get settled???

Nice wkend

Ahhhhhh.... had a real nice sat... Zzzz enough and my entire body, mind totally relaxed...

Got a surprise "date" from Thomas. Hahaha guys can't really talk as much as gals :-D N as usual, he mentioned about exercising as well. Ok, I am going to give some serious thought about it. But if I were to choose a new sport to learn, i think i will like to learn pole dancing;-)

Chit chatting with mas also brought some other thoughts into my mind... Haiz... the same old thing... studies... umm... maybe it is jux natural tat one gets too bored, one thoughts start to run wild... Pray that an outsome will be reached soon... some things are unfolding... though not rapidly but dfinitely happening... i jux got a funny feeling about some things...

The first part of the ans for my studies prob had already been revealed... now i am waiting for the second part, which i tink will be some time... N i got tis funny feeling that i may not be able to find a suitable job within tis yr... I maybe able to leave the company but not be able to find my next ideal job... Haiz... I guess this yr is an unfruitful yr... going to be stagnant in growth n full of problems ba... Haiz... so sian... boring...

Was chit chatting wif an old fren on MSN... I guess i must have been ignoring some of my old frenz for too long... there are so much things to catch up wif and after 4 hrs of chit chatting is stil not enough!!! As i am writing, the marathon chat is still going on ;-D

Hahaha, I guess this year, my "tao hua yun" is the best so far:-D but i guess i am still too playful to settle down to a relationship... i guess stability in my love life is not something that I am looking for at the moment ba... i tink i prefer to have stability in work, will like to have some stuff to fill up my empty slots after work... i guess i prefer a kind life tat is simple n free ba;-) the freedom to choose as n when i want. But i guess that is not easy... cos sometimes we may not even noe wat is good for ourselves... or rather we assume wat is good for ourselves, den ended up "hurting" ourselves...

Later have to tidy up my room... Got alot of books, CDs n letters to sort out... N have to decide where to put pesticide disks... Haiz... got frightened by roaches for the past 2 days... though they r in the kitchen n my mum had put 4 disks in the kitchen at various spots, my room is stil in "danger " hahaha... My parents are really at a lost of how to help me overcome my fear:-)

Oki i tink it is time tat i should go n rest... hope that answers to my problems come after a nice nice Zzz :-D

Unwinded

Hey TGIF!!! Hahaha jux came back from gossiping and unwinding session... My darling was sharing with me about the "love" story of her colleagues...

Well, hearing the story, I really pity my darling, who is the free-to-consult consultant... The situation and the behaviour of her colleagues are, umm, frustrating... If darling, you are reading this post, I guess you are thinking that the word is simply insufficient to describe :-D

Hahaha... Personally, if I am the gal, I guess I will be a bit unhappy citing from what I can gather and understand... Which gal dosen't like to be courted/wooed by a guy that she had feelings for??? And how many gals will feel secure about expressing her feelings if the guy is not making any moves or rather, he himself does not even noe that he had fallen for her??? Haiz... and citing words by someone... "how many gals like to hear tat a guy likes her from another fren when the guy is not making any move???"

N this guy also very funny(in my view), y must he only start buying breakfast everyday for her only after she agree to be his GF and not before, since he admitted tat he had feelings for her??? Haiz... N his concept of "either be my GF or can't even be frenz" theory is really ridiculous... I don't tink I can stand it if he is one of my frenz confiding n asking for advice...

But nevertheless, this couple-will-be brought lots of fun to me despite we don noe each other ;-)
And jux from hearing their stories and standing as a 3rd party, I really tink they have the potential to be a couple... So guess only can hope that they can work together to get through this hurdle ba;-)

And citing comments from other 3rd party, a guy, wrong and bad timing, childish thinking abt the GF or no frenz theory and if they can cross this hurdle together, it will be sweeter in future... Umm been sometime since I hear such wise words from him hahaha... Luckily he don have my blog add, else he will "ham tam" me hahaha...

After laughing for 3 good hours, I am really feeling great!!! Hahaha!!! Forgot about my unhappiness and problems... I guess perhaps soon I can start to take up some sports again to release more epinephrine(hope it is the right hormone) so that I can be more positive and happier :-D been very down recently... i tink perhaps i lost the anchor in my life... perhaps i reached a plateu in my career tat can only be overcome by studying, which i don really feel like doing at the moment... perhaps i jux hate to stay because there are too much unhappiness already??? umm too much possibilities hahaha...

Oh good news too, my eyes are getting better... i tink jux tat eyes are tired and the contact lens are not clean... Will adapt the recommendations by my colleague to get a new pair of lens and clean up my work areas and stuff to remove possible contaminants... Good way to claim my benefits;-) jux tat i wonder do i need to return them if i leave soon after i claim it hahaha

I think tat is all for now... I think it is the happiest post during the past weeks... written merrily n words flow freely... relax and enjoying every moment... and more than happy to let people know all about what I think :-D

2nd thoughts... ... ...

Haiz... I am having second thoughts about leaving this year...

Firstly I guess I hate looking for jobs and going for interviews, secondly, the stability is really eating into me... I am afraid that I am having second thoughts simply because I can't bear to leave behind an environment that have become so familiar... ... ... Oh it is so hard at times... ... ...

Though there are some plans but I wonder if they happen... or rather will they happen in a promising way hahaha:-D I guess I am being near-sighted when I write this... Cos who knows if a bad outcome might become a blessing in disguise???

Anyway, since my scope jux changed again, I guess I can continue go digging for new opportunities while I am "hiding" comfortably away hahaha... Jux have to be careful of somethings only :-D well, jux hope that eventually events can unfold in an interesting way ba;-)

What is the use of working when there is nothing to work on???

Broke the news to some of my fellow colleagues about my decision to leave... Well I think it came as a surprise to some but expected for most hahaha:-D seems like everyone have different reasons why they want to leave but I guess mine is the funniest hahaha... Not enough work to keep me busy;-)

Anyway, the "scary" thing is that I got a call from an agency regarding arrangements for putting my resume through for certain positions that they have. The ONE that I want is in it as well!!! N I finally know what is the name of the company. Let's see if I can get to the interview and see what they offer. The other company is also one that I know too and is very close to my first company. I wonder which one I will hava a better chance of getting to the interview???

Hahaha I guess at the moment I am just thinking too much;-) and further more, my "record" is not very good so I won't hold high hopes except for the particular ONE that maybe desperate :-D

Back to my current job. I think it is really getting on my nerves. My boss asked me to move down to my "home" without telling me what to do next. And I have to find work to entertain myself for half a day. Seriously speaking, I feel guilty for the amount of work I do vs amount of $$ I get for it... I had been enjoying myself for at least 7 months in total if I were to add them all up!!! Haiz, actually I start to think that I must be crazy to want to change job. Comfortable slacking environment, convenient to go many places and meet my frenz, good pay (considering the amt of work)... ... ... But the boredom is killing me and I don't see myself moving to a comfortable position in another few years down the road... Well, I will just essentially become a more "senior" staff or SO in due time, perhaps, but... ... ... I think that is not exactly what I want... ... ... I think for now, I prefer to "hide" in a job that don't deal with the "life" and "death" of ppl every single day/moment in the job... ... ...

Haiz but will I be really able to "hide" from my heart... ... ... ??? ??? ???

Beautiful beautiful day :-D

Yeah PH :-D hahaha zzz till 1pm den finally willing to get out of my bed. Umm n a surprise from my fren nana, hahaha she actually msg me at 12! N she was simply up early n not OTing hahaha, good for her;-)

We agree to meet at 3pm at my area to go square2... n the reason tat i am writing this blog, is simply that she is late n not replying my msgs again hahaha:-D n at this precise moment she called to say that she is on her way out of her home hahaha... n of cos, she is awfully late, i guess the earliest i wil be seeing her wil be 3.30pm;-)

well, i guess i will be breaking the news of my restoration of $$$ cut to her tis afternoon hahaha... den can c wat is her expression hahaha. Looking forward to my good days of freedom since i am not planning to study and i have a series of plans ahead of me hahaha:-D

some how or rather, ppl r far more concern abt my eyes den i really am despite they r my eyes! anyway, i guess this wk no contact lens n coming sat will be going to polyclinic to do a check again den obtain specialist letter for check up ba... i guess becos knowing the procedures too well, worrying is no use hahaha... jux got to wait, rest n c how;-)

oki, go grab a quick drink of water den wait to head out n meet nana hahaha... let's c if i got more things to share tonight else it will be cya!!!