Been a rough week...

Phew... It's been one week and I didn't even realise it... The past week had been rough, in terms of work, emotions and health...

Emotions are unstable. Guess will talk about it the next time since the worst of it had passed and I need some time to sort it out and settle down. Health issues are easier to deal with though... Apparently, my nose is giving me more problems. My sleep is greatly disturbed due to blockage in the nose and on the average, I had only been sleeping 3 hours per night... And the sleep is not continuous, which makes things worst. Initially, there were some of those infamous lymph node blocks but it dissipated in 2 days. The cheeks and nose area had some feverish feel but the mucus is too thick to be blown out to check on colour... After that, mild fever came in cycles... Well, till this point, I thought it could be fungus infection as I was working on a whole chunk of it not too long before symptoms started and what's worst, one of my colleagues did some fungus coated stuff in open space... The major surprise came on Thursday. There was a line of small bruises along the left side of my left calf. The bruises were about 2-3mm in diameter and stretches from mid-calf to knee, with about 10 of them. They were basically painless but obvious enough when I was applying some body cream. And for some reason, the dilated veins on the back of my right knee started to throb badly when I walked.

Well, guess that's the signal to go see a doctor. After compiling my complaints, there were 2 conclusions. First on list was actually dengue! Next came the question on weaken immunity. The bruises were more worrisome as it could indicate that I am already infected by dengue and my other complaints are secondary reactions to it. Weaken immunity was the other probable cause as I lost weight and my appetite had not exactly returned. Basically, the nose problem and unexplainable mild fever could be all due to weaken of the immune system which could lead to fungus infection.

I was asked to submit a blood sample for a FBC and of course, it was not smooth sailing. As usual, my veins were hard to locate and my GP missed during the 1st attempt. After that, he located another good spot on the back of my left hand. It was quite tiny and a 25G needle plus the help of a nurse was required. Before the attempt, my GP told me straight in the face that if he missed, it's best that I looked for my ex-colleagues to take for me the next day. Luckily, he manage to get it done with minimal problem except for the common worry about the blood clotting before it can be transferred to the tube from the syringe.

The lab report was out but I missed the call from the clinic hahaha. But since there was no voicemail and no subsequent calls, guess at least the blood sample is fine. Results wise, it's harder to conclude as they may not bug me if the values are borderline. Guessed, the results are either normal or grey zone, poor results are definitely out and that's good enough news :-D

Ok going to concussed soon... Taken medication about half hour ago... Last week been real tired and depressing. Will try to blog as frequently as possible during this coming week;-)

Very tired but recharged :-D

Argh... It must be an omen... Thursday worked late to wrap things up... Friday went back to check on some stuff... Saturday got recalled to work... Haiz... All these urgent cases are really overwhelming and tiring.

For the past week, there had been alot of urgent cases which does not include him. But there are alot of other things that had been bothersome... Anyway, it had been a very draining week... Though I managed to squeeze in a dinner with friends but overall, my social life is as thin as a sheet of 70g A4 paper. There had been dates but need to cancel at the very last minute and some which I can't agree to as I already sign up for standby duty. Anyway, the roster is of no use because it depends on luck. Nowadays, I am too tired to even go catch a movie hahaha... There had been shows which I wanted to watch but at the end of the day, I just don't have the mood. Instead, a book and a nice tea or a walk seems to be more appealing and relaxing... Of course shopping therapy is my all time favourite too;-) Spend a little on food stuff and a book... Saw clothes which I am interested but seriously no mood to buy... It is the only start of spring, too early to spend on S/S wear;-)

Finally, I attended an Anglican service again... Been thinking of going for some time but finally took the step today. It is a nice place with a fun and dedicated pastor and parish. Been surrounded by interesting people whom are concern but not overwhelming. Guessed this is one of the places which I will settle down for awhile... Try to get to know more people and participate in more activities gradually so that I feel belong... Though my head starts to get a bit heavy after awhile as it is my 1st Mandarin service, but more or less I can grasp the things that the pastor is bringing across.Since the service I attended in the past was Anglican, it is not a problem getting use to the tone and rhythm of this one.

Though I still feel a little tired from work but now I am recharged and ready for the coming week. Sometimes, there is an underlying fear that when things seem to be right and in place, something will happen to break everything apart. Hope this is not one of the times... Seriously need some good things and happy stuff to happen around me...

Wonder if I can make it or do I want to go for the prayer session on Tuesday??? Umm...

A good day :-D

Yeah!!! No grieve from that person today!!! But there are some other troublesome cases and guess I am too tired... Hahaha I actually forgot to get something from my supervisor for one if the case. By the time I remembered, she already left home hahaha. Just cleared whatever I could and rushed to get the camera from Lv 3 for servicing.

Hahaha as usual, when the item is sent for servicing, it works while the technician checked it but failed to work when we are using it. Took sometime to get things done but guessed there will still be some problems tomorrow. But well, hope nothing major happens and the hiccups can be cleared away ASAP.

Dinner at MOF with YY and Flor was good. As usual, we crapped and ate but we all ate smaller amounts than usual. For me, I ate more than anticipated for both lunch and dinner... Felt alot like throwing up after I got home hahaha. Florence had quite a good appetite and YY surprised me by not having dessert;-) Both YY and me seems to be affected by health problems in one way or another...

Haiz... I wonder how long will I get back to my old self??? I am fine with maintaining my current weight rather than gaining back. Imagine how much clothes will go to waste and stretching of skin I got to endure... Umm... Hope I can maintain it hahaha.

Ahhh... Guess how much weight I lost...

Haiz... I bought a new weighing scales during my shopping trip yesterday... My current weighing scales had been a little weird for the past week. Firstly, the needle jumped to 20kg per itself and my weight changed by 2kg when I weighed on Saturday and Sunday morning. Got my mum to help check it and was confirmed that the weight seems to be off by a few kg.

The big shock came this morning... All the while, I thought I only lost about 3kg which wasn't so bad since I was about 50kg to start with. But my new weighing scales showed that my weight is 43.5kg!!! I re-took it 3 times to make sure that my eyes are not playing tricks on me but I finally gave in and acknowledged that I lost 6kg :-( No wonder people were commenting that I lost alot of weight and they seemed to be not very convinced when I told them my weight lost was only 3kg...

After wrapping up work, I rushed back to Northpoint to look for jeans. It was already 9.30pm but luckily there were still shops opened and willing to serve this last customer... Bought 3 pairs of jeans at a good price and almost no alteration is required hahaha. Only need to alter an inch for all 3 pairs of jeans and basically all of them fit snugly at all areas. Most probably will send 2 pairs for alteration in the next 2 days and use up my voucher to purchase some tops.

In case you were wondering why was I so late, the "popular" person had been giving us grieve again... And because of that, our cut-over for security had to be delayed and was only done at 7pm. After everything was tested and wrapped up, it was already 7.40pm. One good thing was that I manage to get my paperwork in order for processing tomorrow. Took some time to unwind and waited for my colleagues before we all left at 8.30pm...

Overall, in a way I am happy that I lost extra few pounds but hoped that it dosen't come back... Don't really want my skin to stretch and slack in short period time...

I am so tired...

Haiz... Monday Blues... Not that I don't feel like going to work but it is the lack of sleep which is the worst of all. For the whole morning, I am sliding in and out of my state of awareness... Been real lethargic and slow in my work but at least all had been done.

Umm... My hands got itchy last night... I sent out my resume to 6 companies and literally my day is ruined because of that. 2 companies called me in the morning while I was about to start stuff. Arranged to call one of them back in the later part of the day but my plans were spoilt due to urgent case. Haiz... Got to give them a call back tomorrow as they had been trying their best to reach me with 3 calls after the agreed time. Well, seems like this time, finding a job may not be the right thing to do yet hahaha...

At the end of the day, I still manage to draw enough energy to go pick up my ring;-) After looking at the end product, I must say that it is quite nice. But I am thinking of changing one of the blue crystal to a pink one so that the mix of colour will not be that "cool" :-) Umm... Or maybe if I am stress enough, maybe I will go make a bracelet or pair of earrings and change the blue crystal as planned hahaha :-D

Before going off, there's this weird thing my colleague said to me. Well, I asked him to sign a document, he actually tell me that I can just imitate his signature pretty easily???!!! Well, I don't really know what is his intention of saying that but it is weird. Who will ask someone to imitate their signature for official documents??? Maybe we are all crazy in a way with the amount of urgent cases and workload.

Umm I must be too stress...

Well, apart from the ring which I got on Friday, which was a little impulsive, I bought alot more stuff today that are not necessities. But the consolation is that at least these stuff are good buys and it can be beneficial in some ways. Luckily, I didn't start on impulse mode and got all the unnecessary stuff ;-)

Basically, I got my contact lens solution, a body cream, my set of facial products and a bag of chips. At least the stuff are useful though not totally necessary yet. Just that the price is too good to resist and they are not expiring in short time. If I got on my impulse mode, clothes and makeup will be the next hahaha. Hope I can resist the makeup after work days start again... Clothes will not be an issue as I have already seen and decided what I want from CCT. There are not alot which I am interested this round but enough to make me happy and anticipated;-)

And it's been sometime since I played with toys packed in an egg from vending machines. My bro surprised me by giving me a couple of the mini vending machines which dispenses mini eggs! One of them is this Doraemon vending machine which dispense eggs to tell your fortune for the day. It is real cute and fun to play with. These mini vending machines are real cute and good destressing toys;-) Hahaha I wonder it's been how many years since I had such fun with these toys...

Perhaps I am too stress or due to the powder I tested on Friday, my left cheek had a red bump with pus sprung up yesterday. After releasing the pus and applying anti-bacteria cream, it had reduce to just redness. Well, it had certainly surprised me as the powder applied on my left is supposed to be anti-blemish! And after that, I covered my entire face with another brand's face powder. Though I took a risk with applying 2 layers of powder from 2 different brands, I expect my right face to flare up 1st hahaha. Umm luckily I wasn't happy with them, else I will have a new cake of powder which will never be used.

If nothing goes wrong, I should be going to collect my ring tomorrow and hopefully I will remember to claim my free earrings hahaha. Hope I will not be too stress or upset to set off on a buying spree;-)

Hahaha I finished my week in peace and happiness

Oh yeah I managed to finish my week in peace!!! No urgent cases for yesterday and today ;-) But there was a case which we had to expedite and my part was completed this morning. Finished all my work with an hour to spare before knocking off so went to check if my colleague need help on her paperwork stuff. Left at 5.15pm to meet with nana at Raffles area for dinner before heading to Orchard for some shopping.

Thought that it might not be raining for the day but the El Nino did not disappoint us with more rain. It was a drizzle as compared to the endless and heavy rain for the past few days. But it did not spoil our mood for some shopping;-) The stress build-up from the urgent cases needed to be released and what is better than shopping therapy!

While walking through the cosmetics department at Tangs, the thought of buying some face powder came across my mind. We walked to Clinique and a guy attended to us. I told him what I was looking for and he seemed at a lost to what I want or how to explain to me about their products. So I just let him make the decisions on what range of powder to try on me and he sure is heavy-handed. He used a cotton ball to apply the powder and my face turned red after he swipe twice on my right side of my face. Than upon my request about anti-acne range, he helped me to try it on my left. Well, the colour was not right but he didn't wipe it off for me. And when I explain to him about some problems I faced using powder foundation, he shunned it off by refering it as moisturizer problem. I was real tempted to tell him that my entire range of products that I am using are Clinique products! What was worst... The mirrors and the lighting conditions highlight and magnify the flaws on both nana n myself. I noticed that the condition of my skin dosen't look right and nana confirmed it after that the mirror is not reflecting accurately what we are look like. And she agreed that the guy was real heavy-handed and to avoid that counter next time. I had to agree and recommend what she said, comsidering my experience there.

Moving on to the next level, I thought of my hat again hahaha. I had been hunting high and low for a nice hat but either I can't find any that fits the design which I want or it's way too big. Well, it happened this time again. While strolling down to the accessories counter, some rings caught my attention. Though I am not a ring person but it can be custom-made with Swarvoski crystal so I thought why not? After going through some designs and decided on the stones, I am real glad that the lady who attended to us was quite knowledgable and not pushy. I will be getting my ring on Monday and a pair of free crystal earrings as there was a promotion. Will try to remember to take a picture for you guys to see;-) At last, my urge to buy stuff was satisfied.

Next, we moved to Isetan Scotts for some bags and clothes browsing. There's a new brand of genuine, hand sewn bags which are real cute! Hahaha but at the moment, I am not so big into bags, more of browsing than urge of buying. As nana was looking for sunglasses for her mum, we moved around and saw that there were hats!!! Hahaha the sizes fit and the designs were cute;-) But end up, I didn't buy any of it as I was thinking that it can wait and as summer approach, more designs will appear. End up, there were no sunglasses except for the real expensive type so nana didn't manage to get anything.

The clothes were ok but things were like strewn around as they were having some sale. Some clothes are real cute and some were simply disgusting. But our minds were set on the shopping spree organised by florence. Hahaha so for the next few days, I guessed we will be prowling over the website to order what we want;-)

After that, I suggested we go Borders to get some books as I remeber J.D. Robbs had 1 new book last year which I didn't get and a new 1 in the same series just came out... There were no small paperbacks for both books, except for the B4 size paperbacks which cost a few dollars more. Well, since there was a promotion and I got a member card, I thought why not. Though it will be heavier to lug around but the quality of paper and size of words are better.

And I finally dug up some old clothes which the cutting were slim fit. Hahaha this is all because of the comments about my weight loss from various people. Nana commented that she nearly couldn't recognise me from my back and about how loose my jeans are. So well, I guessed I got to listen to the people around me hahaha.

Sometimes I am really awed by coincidences. Well, as nana was talking about taking a cab home, my colleague actually called and offer to drive me home. But I didn't pick up the call and anyway, it was not convenient since I was in Orchard hahaha. Most importantly the thought counts and the coincidence is real interesting ;-)

That's all for now... Going to read my book now... Bye!

I don't want any more urgent cases ah...

Just got home not long ago from an urgent case. Arh... When is it going to end, all these urgent cases and so many other junk piling up :-( Thought I could clear 3 weeks worth of archvial backlog but got to stop at the last quarter of it. Hope there will be time to finish things up tomorrow, wrap everything tight and top with a nice pink bow. Praying hard that there will be no more urgent cases tomorrow because I am on standby again... My last day for the week, let me finish it in peace.

Tiredness from the soul

Been a bit restless in my work lately... Wonder if this is the side effect of too much urgent cases and relationship issues recently. There is this tiredness coming from within my heart about what I am doing daily. There seems to be no reason or target but just moving along with the crowd, moving along because it is easier to follow than to resist. Perhaps I am older now, no longer adventurous and enjoy risks. Umm... age does play a part on things or rather the emotional age does play a part ;-) Some changes will be happening in a few months time and I am looking forward to it :-D

Some thoughts...

The weekend is almost over and I am glad that it had helped me to recover from the fatigue. A good choice on my part of not going anywhere except for the library. Didn't realise how much I need the rest and the solitude.

The trip to the beach on Friday night brought back alot of memories. I used to like nature more than commercial areas but most of my companions like commercial areas better so I sort of shifted. How long had it been since I strolled along the beach or read at the beach? Too long for me to recall... Strolling and casual talk under moonlight had been ages ago... And I forgotten how much it can help me relax, to just rest... There are people around but yet I am alone... That's what I need when I want a break... Commercial places is like a black hole, draining my energy away... Guess that's one of the reasons why I don't really want to go out and shop or walk around on weekends.

When I was at the library yesterday, I had this sudden impulse thought to go to the nearby park and just sit. Too many things had happened and happening at the same time. Work stress just add one more streak to it... Umm I guess the need to move on in one way or another is pushing me. Is there enough trust in me to just embrace it as it comes???

The coming week will be very busy and I don't think I can spare much thoughts to things... Umm... Going to meet people up the following week to do some catch up... Maybe it's time for me to just totally let go and see what comes back to me...

Updates after a busy and tired week... ... ...

Hey hey I am back;-) It's been one solid week since I got online and with a peaceful night of sleep. Last night was really great, got a nice dinner and stroll plus a some chit chat time. I guess the unwinding time and being a Friday night helped. Having a good night of sleep was like unattainable for the last few days. Phew... Got a solid 7 hours last night and my stiff right shoulder finally got more desirable rest.

The grand reason for being so tired is because of work. Well, there's no need for me to spell out the grand reason since most of you know what I do for a living. Since last Thurs, my lab had been swamped by uregnt cases. My work schedule had been seriously impaired by urgent cases for the entire past week. I had at least 1 urgent case per day and my peak was juggling with 2 and notification of 1 for the next day. I didn't even have a break like some of my colleagues but that can't be help. I am going to pity one of my colleagues who is coming next Monday after a 3 week break. She is going to get swamp but some other colleagues will be glad that she is back to share the load;-) For the coming week, I will be on standby for 3 weekdays as far as I can remember but that can change in the blink of an eye. I got spared weekend standby for this week because some of my colleagues who is doing part-time studies will be doing their part over the weekend. So Nana, be prepared that I might need to cancel last minute despite I am not suppose to be on standby next Friday. If you need to curse and swear, do it to the guy causing these grieve :-(

Oh and I read a response by Nana over my last entry. Well, perhaps the sequence which I wrote it was misleading or maybe the expression of my emotions was not good. Anyway, appreciate your mail but there is no need for you to clarify things. Like I said, emotions passed and again, read my last entry carefully to get the reason that ticked me off. Oh one thing I forgot to put in my mail, my apologies if you get the wrong idea about my entry and if you are offended about my reference to the people that they are acquantainces. Those are my heartfelt words because for me to call you a good friend, means I had placed a piece of myself in your hands. Acquantainces does not have the privilege because there is no trust. Hope we can meetup next Friday for some dinner. I am thinking about going elsewhere for dinner 'cos my appetite had yet to return hahaha. But it will still be seafood;-) Missed them greatly.

The pox thing had upset my body pretty badly. It's been 2 weeks since I recovered from it but my appetite and nose had yet to return to it's old state. My lactose intolerance problem became more prominent and my tongue is still not use to strong tasting stuff. My nose sort of got better but as the weather got cold, the general temperature and lab temperature difference is smaller, so perhaps it's just an illusion. The only good thing that had happened after the pox was that my skin got better. Perhaps my yearning for the unhealthy but tasty food had greatly declined so the stress on my GI system is greatly reduced and it can start to absorb the necessary stuff which changes my complexion. Maybe that is also why my appetite had become so tiny. It amazed my colleagues that I can have a salad and that's it. And it further amazed my mum that I can eat boiled vegetables only for dinner! Hahaha hope by end of March, my appetite will be better;-)

And a decision had been made about what I want to do for the next few months. Well, don't hit me after you read this, there is a chance that I may not want to do my degree full time even if I get in;-) I may just change my job and move on. Maybe a couple of months down the road, I may do a part time instead;-) Hahaha but that is provided my health improves.

Ok that's all for now, don't bomb me with emails, sms and calls after you read my above paragraph:-) Will try to update more frequently.

Very upset...

Well, to start with, my nose is still giving me problems, which is one of the reasons that is very upsetting. Another was the dinner yesterday...

There was this gathering or belated birthday celebration yesterday. I wasn't really up for it because my nose is a little sensitive to temperature changes and being a rainy day yesterday didn't really help much. The other reason was that there is this guy there who popped the question and there would only be a couple and 2 of us. Though I was aware of it in advance but well, it still smell fishy. I told my friend that I don't think I want to go due to the 2 reasons above but she gave me assurance about the issue on the other guy that there won't be a problem with her boyfriend commenting or pressuring. Since the number of people going is already so small, I guessed it was not very nice of me to cancel last minute.

As the arrangement of the meet up time and location was a little funny, I decided to meet YY for some shopping and chit chat at Suntec. If you are wondering why I commented the meet up way and time was funny, well, if a couple is going to shopping together for clothes and having dinner after that, there isn't any point for me to reach early and shop with them. The best way is for me to join them at the dinner place after they have confirmed. And with the guy joining them, this sounds like a setup. As my decision was to be a little later than the approximate time so that they can settle down, I only sms my friend at 6.05pm that I will be a little late and check if they are already in a restaurant. Well, the reply was that they will go and eat first but there was no mention of which restaurant they were at or whether is it still the same one as she had suggested. And no confirmation whether they were already in a restuarant or still hunting for one. Later she asked me what time I was coming over and I told her that I was nearby and what would be a good time for me to come since I got company. Well, I am not sure if my brain is already so dull with medication or we were just not getting each other's meaning. But I guessed I had asked simple questions with straight answers. Anyway, the reply to my question about the best time to go was another question. And the question was who was I with. Well, what was the importance of the person I was with at that time? Anyway, I answered her with no touch of humor. After that, she replied that it was up to me about the best time to come and added that another couple whom initially was not coming for dinner would be joining us.

That was the time when I took as my cue to join them since they were considered settled. And I told YY that in another few minutes I would have to go. Guessed what? I got a sms from the guy asking me what time am I coming. Hahaha it sound too nice for me to believe that it was a coincidence that not long after I told her about who was I with and this guy drop an sms. At around 6.30pm, my friend told me that the other couple had reached. I was already on my way walking over to the connecting bridge to Marina Square by than. during the short walk of around 10 minutes, I was "bomb" with sms by 3 different people. Well, that was the last straw. By the time the 3rd person sms me about when was I coming, I simply replied that I was on my way and there's no need to sms bomb me and that they could go ahead with dinner without me. From than, I literally dragged myself to walk there, really took my own sweet time so that my anger and temper can simmer.

By the time I reached, any polite apologies with being very late and polite conversation were impossible for me. I just flinged my bag on the chair and sat down, handled some sms with YY and called my mum. I didn't bother with food or drinks because my aim was to show my face and get out ASAP. I didn't care if they were equally upset or angry with me nor did I care if they were concerned. Even if they had all decided it was my own problem, it was none of my business already. Even if they think I should apologise or be more polite etc, it is none of my business already.

Overall, I am simply very upset because I find that I cannot trust my friend anymore. The whole thing smelt of setup. I want to believe that she will not do it but it got harder by the minute, by per sms. And for the guy, I am sure you must had spoken to her about some stuff. Basically, I don't care what you guys had been talking about because it is normal to work on friends of that person you like. But remember your own comments and thoughts about her. It sounds as though you were banking on the fact that she might come telling me somethings which you had told her. Of course I might had been thinking too much. But at the moment, I am way too upset. I just want to put it all down or throw it out into the universe.

Through out this whole thing, I really appreciate YY and KK for listening to my outburst. As mentioned before, both of you had problems of your own to deal with and they are not easy. YY, thanks for being there and making the effort to stay despite you are tired. And KK, thanks for your follow-up call, to listen and cheer me up.

That's all for now... Time for medication.

Hi there, in case you are wondering why I had "disappeared" online, no worries, just that my nose is giving me some problems. The evening medication is pretty strong and basically I get knocked out for about 6-8 hours. And recently I am not in my best form, physically or mentally so I rather not spread the negativity and just follow what my body wants: Rest.

Back to work is not as bad. They were pretty surprised that I seem quite normal with not much of scars. After my explaination on the drugs and where the pox are growing, they became more surprised that I actually had to take more medication than food in the first week :-D After the initial concerns on recovery and scars, the next thing is about my weight. One of my colleagues whom spoke to me first thing in the morning asked me 2 hours later how much weight I lost. She didn't notice that I lost so much weight as I was sitting down when we talked earlier and thought my face seems slimmer only. She commented when I stood and especially from my back, the weight lost shows. And for the rest of the week, people commented that I seem to have lost significant weight. One of them was even kind enough to point out that the number of 2.5 to 3kg may not sound big but if by proportion to my original weight, I lost about 1/18 of my weight in 1 week. For now, my lunchtime colleagues are also a little concern that my appetite have yet to return and my nose problem seems more significant.

For work wise, there are some hiccups but by now it had straighten out and hopefully things go well when my boss is back next week. One thing that got me concern though is my colleague. Other collegaues had commented that she seems troubled and unhappy. On Wednesday, 3 of them had planned to go to a movie together and the idea was initiated by her earlier. The other 2 were fine by it and so it became a confirm deal. But after work on Wednesday, she turned and left for home. The other 2 were shocked and surprised. When I asked about what had happened, they told me about what had happened recently and her weird behaviour. I went to clarify with her the next day when there were only 2 of us and she told me about what is troubling her. Basically, it is a general problem faced by everybody in the workforce. But I guessed it is harder on her because of her character and the character of the people whom are causing her these troubles. She had asked that I don't do anything about it and let her sort things out first. I guess for the next 2 weeks, there will still be some tension on and off between some of them. There are also little hiccups for some of my other colleagues and the stress is showing. Hope that they will be out of it soon.

It was a good dinner and chit chat session with YY yesteraday. Her sudden flare up of acne had improved and on her way to recovery. Thank you for her attention and advice she had given me for some of my problems. She had her own set of troubles and I truly appreaciate the time and concern given to me. I am a little sad that there is nothing much that I can do for her except to listen though. Uncertainty is also an issue that had always troubled me. But things always worked out, just that it may not be the way I wanted.

Getting a little tired with typing... I guess I should go and look around for clothes to wear and pack some stuff. Don't think I will go KTV with them after dinner gathering though. Guess my nose is not going to cooperate with the air condition in the KTV. My day medication is only working for 4 hours rather than the 6 stated.