Emotionally drained but happy... ... ...

I guess it is a coincindence or challenge or sign or preparation or trust or whatever you call it... There's been many things going around my friends recently. Emotionally, I am pretty drained. At the same time, I am happy that they talk to me, thank you for the trust and hope I am of help to you all.

Each of you are going through a difficult time and experiencing changes, for some of you, I know the details, for some I am not very sure. Perhaps I can be of help, perhaps I can't but if you ever need a listening ear, I am around ;-)

Main reason of being emotionally drained is not really because of you guys but rather that I am also going through a difficult time. Many thoughts and feeling of uncertainty are running in my mind and heart. The fear of commitment, the bottle neck in my job and uncertainty about studies... Perhaps I am not sure what I want and the feeling of being in a comfort zone is influencing me more than I realised. So in a nutshell, there are decisions to be made and I am pretty stumped. And family issues are also bothersome but that I have settled and am prepared for the worst.

Some things to say to some of you... For flor, this recent relationship has been real challenging and I hope that you will be stronger after it. Of course, I will pray hard that you will meet your Mr Right soon and get married;-) For darling, I have said most what I wanted to say to you this afternoon... But again, don't be rash. Being fresh in this mine field, it is inevitable to have explosions and be injured a few times but "revenge" is not the way to solve issues. YY, I am glad that you have moved out. Now you have breathing space and time to clear your mind. To me, it is also a good way to "force" your brother and sis-in-law to mature and have a sense of parenthood.

There are still many things that I will like to say but the thoughts and feelings are pretty jumbled up so I guess I will write again when I am more settled... Umm... Looking at how things are going around me, looks like it is my turn next to experience some stuff... Wonder what will it be??? Haiz... no good feelings about it...

Thoughts about love...

Hey hey it's been a real long time since I updated... For all those who are still reading them, I offer my most sincere apologies... Some of you might know why I have not been writing but in a nutshell, it's just that I am having a "down" time. Many things had happened not only to me but to the people whom I care for deeply too... This is more of an entry to share about my thoughts on these events...



First of all, I should say congrats to YY for the addition of a new member to her family and recognition at the workplace :-D But on the other hand, I am sorry too... I see how hard you have to balance work, studies and family beause of the new addition. And I say the parents of the new addition should be putting more effort. There is nothing that I can do except to be there when you need a listening ear... Hope that things will work out smoothly and better when you moved out.



The next thing which I felt for deeply is you, darling... You should know the person I am talking about... Because I can feel the negative feelings radiating from you... And as your darling and sister, my heart ache for you... Ok, before you start throwing up your breakfast, lunch or/and dinner for the last sentence above, I still have to say it again: I am saddened by how much negative feelings you have stored up. Throw up if you must but rest assured that there won't be such mushy stuff below ;-)



Though I am not in the best position to comment about your relationship but I really hate to see how things are getting on in your relationship... Hope he "wake up" to start seeing, understanding and thinking for you... When you look for me that day to talk about stuff, to be honest I am pretty surprised as it was already sometime since we sat down and chit chat... And most importantly, I sense something like guilt... Well, I don't know if my understanding on the fact that you might need to spend more time with him had actually been a bad thing after all... Haiz... Looking at how you are all tangled up and not exactly happy makes me wonder if I had talked to you more often and not insist on my "understanding", will things be better??? And seriously, if you have any sense of guilt in not meeting up more often, throw that out! Our friendship is never built on how many times we meet up and how much "nice" words we say to each other...


When 2 person with different views and character come together, love is what bonds you and yet it is also the cause for seperation... Hahaha maybe when he know about what I had written, he will scream bad company again;-) So far whenever you talk to me about your relationship problems, I listen more than I talk so this is the only piece of advice I can and will give you... There are many differences and issues in a relationship but your love for a person makes you vulnerable to that person. Sometimes, people say that they don't mind giving and they don't need you to reciprocate but in fact they wanted you to give more. What I am saying does not constitute any good or bad comment but simply some thoughts and views... Perhaps they can be useful, perhaps they can be useless, perhaps they can be harmful... But I know that you have your own mind and I have confidence in you :-D

Oki that's all for now... Hard to keep my mind and fingers to this entry when I have to "talk" to people and write it at the same time... See you when I see you!