Emotionally drained but happy... ... ...

I guess it is a coincindence or challenge or sign or preparation or trust or whatever you call it... There's been many things going around my friends recently. Emotionally, I am pretty drained. At the same time, I am happy that they talk to me, thank you for the trust and hope I am of help to you all.

Each of you are going through a difficult time and experiencing changes, for some of you, I know the details, for some I am not very sure. Perhaps I can be of help, perhaps I can't but if you ever need a listening ear, I am around ;-)

Main reason of being emotionally drained is not really because of you guys but rather that I am also going through a difficult time. Many thoughts and feeling of uncertainty are running in my mind and heart. The fear of commitment, the bottle neck in my job and uncertainty about studies... Perhaps I am not sure what I want and the feeling of being in a comfort zone is influencing me more than I realised. So in a nutshell, there are decisions to be made and I am pretty stumped. And family issues are also bothersome but that I have settled and am prepared for the worst.

Some things to say to some of you... For flor, this recent relationship has been real challenging and I hope that you will be stronger after it. Of course, I will pray hard that you will meet your Mr Right soon and get married;-) For darling, I have said most what I wanted to say to you this afternoon... But again, don't be rash. Being fresh in this mine field, it is inevitable to have explosions and be injured a few times but "revenge" is not the way to solve issues. YY, I am glad that you have moved out. Now you have breathing space and time to clear your mind. To me, it is also a good way to "force" your brother and sis-in-law to mature and have a sense of parenthood.

There are still many things that I will like to say but the thoughts and feelings are pretty jumbled up so I guess I will write again when I am more settled... Umm... Looking at how things are going around me, looks like it is my turn next to experience some stuff... Wonder what will it be??? Haiz... no good feelings about it...