Tired tired tired... Hermitiing...

Been lazy again... Been leading a very hermit lifestyle for the last 2 weeks... And I still want to continue this hermitting...

Tired of listening... Been sometime since I reached the saturation point... Well, I guessed instead of asking others to listen to my drawling, I preferred to be left alone in my own world... It's sort of like being at the eye of a cyclone where the calmity is at the centre while everything goes whirling around it.

Many questions, worries and of course uncertainty whirled around while I am standing in the centre of it all... Waiting for things to settle and let the calmity stretched. Hermitting in my own world gave me the peace and rest which I wanted...

Been real tired... Sometimes I wonder how deep is my heart and mind... How much can it hold before overflowing??? Shall continue hermitting...

Slacking...

Not in the mood to blog... Been very lazy and slacking hahaha... Guessd it's just a phase with all the feelings jumbled up.

Same old problems at work... Mixed feelings on leaving in another 2 months time... Uncertainty in starting a new direction in life... Umm... Maybe there's too much so I rather not type them here, else you guys will have a long time scrolling through the words;-)

Speaking of length of entry... Hahaha guessed next time I will have to blog with more pictures... Guessed I won't have that much of time to write like now and a picture speaks a thousand words;-)

Oki... Going to take a break and most probably will go sleep after that... Cya when I cya!

Consultation @ TTSH

As far as I remember, this is the second specialist I visited since young... For unknown reasons, I was given a consultant level specialist at General Medicine. Got to say that she is good, considering that she in twenty minutes, she manage to squeeze in my description of 2 months worth of medical issues and physical examination plus general advice for my current condition.

So far, cardiac is eliminated at the moment for the blackout issue as she felt that the chronic low blood pressure is the cause. Since the condition is chronic and I have already gotten used to the typical symptoms plus it is not alarmingly low, it is not of major concern at least for now. The rest of the problems are pretty vague and actually does not point to anything solid. Weaken immunity is one of the causes and the weight loss maybe thyroid issues. Will be going back for a blood test tomorrow for thyroid and fasting glucose. Oh the glucose is for elimination purpose as my family has diabetes history. So got to have more holes on my arms or hands again...

And if the lab reports does not provide an insight on things, either more tests will be ordered on my next appointment or I will be put on a regime of western version of tonics: vitamins. Some tonic was offered today but I refused as drinking milk powder-like substance is not to my liking;-) Will know if further referral to other clinics will be required in 3 weeks time or in another day or two.

Oh a little tidbit to end my entry. Broke the news to my boss and she seemed quite ok. After that told my colleagues about it and they started plotting reasons to ask me back to work part-time or temp during my breaks hahaha.

Some good news and some bad ones too...

Accepted the offer by NTU yesterday... Umm unless I want to back out before payment is made else I should be sticking it through... Things are rolling along fine and the most crucial part will be breaking the news to my boss... Audit had been pushed back so got to wait for a few more weeks before I can give her verbal news and consult about my leave issues. Another piece of good news. Might be able to secure a part time tutor job at a tuition centre while I am studying so I can still be financially stable. By the way, thinking seriously if I should apply for hostel since 1st year students are guranteed a place...

Bad news now... No worries, not like I fainted or something;-) Just that after consuming 1 BK breakfast, 2 KFC 2 piece chicken meal and 2 Mos Burger meals in a week, my weight dropped instead. This "miracle" happened over last week which I spent a few days eating out and I decided to gourge myself silly with fast food. So after 5 fast food meals in a week, I expected to gain maybe a little weight or at least some water weight since I "toxicated" my body. Well, apart from bloatedness for a few hours and some discomfort overnight, I gained nothing...

And by the way, I took my weight after drinking about 500ml of warm water in the morning hahaha... Should I take that into account??? :-)

Reading myself silly

Gave myself a treat yesterday at Coffee Club after a trip to the bank after work. Bought a Jeffery Deaver novel and proceeded to read the book with a shepherd pie and ice passion fruit tea. Been sometime since I took large amount of dairy products and the antibiotics make the protests from my GI worst than ever. Well, a little price paid for the nice vanilla ice cream;-)

Jeffery Deaver can really write. His books never failed to entertain me no matter what state I am in. From Lincoln Rhymes to Kathryn Dance, different angles, different professional type but equally good. For a detective based novel, the layers and emotions were actually expressed well despite using simple words. Found a new Japanese author (translated to Chinese) who writes pretty well too. Most Jap based novels have a pretty standard way and language style which it is unique to them. Despite that I can't read Jap and the novels actually went through many translators(even in one book) but the language usage is the same.

Ate alot of stuff which strains my GI recently. Finally guilt strikes me and guess what? I prepared tomato and pumpkin soup. All natural with only pinch of salt and sugar to taste! Luckily my culinary skills had not faded with lack of practice else I would have to stuff myself with things that I shouldn't be eating:-)

Well rested and Happy Labour Day

Thought of going out to get some sun and relax somewhere but my bed and some time alone at home seems too precious to get wasted away;-) Went to the library to get some books than proceeded to get myself some comfort food yesterday evening. Gorge myself sick with KFC and of course I paid the price with a bloated and uncomfortable stomach for the rest of the night till this morning.

And despite sleeping till nearly 12pm, I was still unwilling to wake up hahaha. The warm sun spiling in to my air-con room is really too comfortable to get out. Finally dragged myself to brush my teeth and munched some food. Bundled myself in bed with a few books and some snacks for the next hour before I remember my antibiotics. Chase the medications down with chocolate biscuits and continue my slacking routine. Dozed off around 3 plus and woke at 5 by a phone call from my mum checking if I wanted any snacks. Touched my belly, looked at the tidbits consumed and decided that it's better not to hahaha.

But I still went on to consume some coke and green tea coated beans before continuing the slacking routine. Finally recharged from the slacking, boot my laptop on and start doing some serious stuff. Check on relevant attachment opportunities and confirm some rumors on certain divisions. So far, manage to get some useful information on the modules that I need to do in order to increase my chances of getting in to the relevant areas interested. After some good news, settled down to write this entry:-D

Well, despite uncertainty is still hanging around my head but guess it will be gone after the acceptance of offer and confirmation of the details... And most importantly, I have already decided my resignation date. If nothing major or upsetting happens, most probably will tender on June 12. If they follow normal procedure and deduct my leave accordingly, I will be off by end of June or early July. Due to the workload and the employing of new staff is faced with problems as well, I am prepared that my boss might suggest I stay for the full month. In that case, I will still have 1-2 weeks of rest and conduct my business before orientation week;-)

Anyway, I am prepared to insist deducting my leave due to health issues hahaha. Guessed most probably after the specialist appointment next week, they still won't be able to figure out why I LOCed but it will be useful as a reason. Though I hope I won't have to use it, parting amicably is still preferable. And using health as a reason when diagnosis is unsure have a way of biting back at the most unexpected times.

Ok need to go bath and get some dinner... Maybe will make some green tea to go with my rice and eat my boiled veggies with an apple as dessert ;-)