Sick again... N alot of time on hand to think about things

Haiz... sick again... this time fever with rashes, probable cause could be respiratory infection but rashes could not be explained... last wk is eye problem, this wk is infection... haiz...

Finally the long long soap opera of my darling's collegues is coming to an end... but... I tink a part 2 is coming soon hahaha... well, many ppl have chipped in their opinions and a big Thank you to them :-D hahaha looks like they will have to settle their differences else they will never come together no matter how much they like each other...

Here are the opinions collected yesterday(cont'd from previous entry on this soap opera):
Opinion 1: If you like someone, you should let the other person know.
Opinion 2: What is the point of telling the other person you like him/her when you already know him/her will reject you?
Opinion 3: If you like the person, it dosen't matter if the person dragged for ages before popping the question.

I guess, love relationship is a funny thing... certain things only the couple will know, certain things only outsiders can see... umm... tiring... I hope that my next relationship will not be this bad or worst... Just looking at it is tiring enough, going thru it will be real terrible I guess... ... ...

And for some reason, my boss is looking for me...twice already, in the lab... I think she must have funny things to ask me or funny things to point out to me or got knives/arrows aimed at me over the SO meeting they had yesterday... looks like I must get ready my resignation letter before it is too late hahaha... As the chinese saying goes, "ci di bu yi jiu liu" ;-)

But thinking back, sometimes i felt that my decision to leave is like running away, running away from something. The issue is, if I am running, I don't even know wat I am running from... And what thing/s that I am so afraid of that I have to run away??? Umm... well, at the moment, I can only confirm that I am unhappy here n it does not have what I want in the next few years... My second tots could have arised from the fact that I am not here for tat long n most ppl have advised against leaving now... Most encouraged me to stay for some time, maybe to the 2 yr mark... but I am tired... tired of the "nothing-to-do" time n having to face crappy questions all the time... n having to deal with the allergy that arise from masks... haiz...

Recently thought of going to Europe... Popped the question to darling n Mas... Well they are ok... Jux abt $$ n leave issue... locations wise, Mas, as usual, "U decide", darling gave me 3 different locations tat are far far apart hahaha... Anyway, it is not confirmed yet... since darling n me thought of leaving our current jobs n Mas just started his new job... Perhaps we will go somewhere nearer???

N it still came as a surprise that Mas might want to do a Drug part time degree or BA degree hahaha... All along I tot he wanted to do Engineering degree... Umm ppl do change over time... Hope that things do get settled over time...

Haiz... Tired... when will things get settled???