Back to work tomorrow...

Oh tomorrow is my first day back to work after 2 weeks of medical leave from pox and I am just not looking forward to it... Maybe it has been too many days since I last worked plus there is this hanging issue of my proficiency testing and there are a number of other reasons too... In a nutshell, I am just not looking forward.

For some reason, I am just not so accustomed to handling concerns from people. Whether they mean it or not, I just don't like them and in a way baffled by them... Well, shower me with your concern and you see me knit my brows, especially if you do that after I am back to work. Sometimes, people don't need concern packaged in this way, no matter genuine or not.

Due to my suspicious nature and the character of some of my colleagues, I wonder what had been brewing while I was away... And some of them are not exactly the loveliest people to deal with. So tomorrow, I got to play it by the ear and hope that all things go well...

The worst of it all is that, after being away for so long, I just feel like dumping the letter. The feeling had become so intense that I feel like as though if I don't do it, it will be a waste hahaha. But sometimes come to think about it, a holiday is not interesting is there is no end to it. And I am not overworked but just being plain lazy ;-)

I guessed all these thoughts and feelings I am experiencing now is because I am nervous??? Or maybe it is because I just dread it all??? Mix of both is the best answer that I can come up with... Arhh... I am so tired of it all... Sadzzz...