My first prayer meet

Today is my first prayer meet at the current church that I am attending. Initially, I thought of putting it aside if nana like to meet for dinner... Than she mentioned that she had work to do so basically the path is clear. No work, no commitments and other reasons for me to walk away so I went. Even when I was approaching the main hall, the thought of turning away was still strong. Eventually, I just decided to give it a try, the worst that could happen was to turn away from prayer meet for awhile.

I am truly glad that I went to the prayer meet. I had been feeling depressed and upset for some time. The last 2 weeks, I had not been sleeping well and my infection is just not clearing up or rather say getting worst. Though the topic today does not really interest me (evangelism) but some verses and words tugged my heartstrings. I just wanted to let my tears flow... Let the words and thoughts which are racing in my mind, that was difficult to form into coherent words, to just flow out like tears. What had really crushed me was a video clip. It shows a father who is about 60 years old, bringing his disabled child, who is about 30 years old, to a triathlon. The child had been paralysed since he was young. At the request of the child, the father who is not in pink of health, brought the child through the process of a full triathlon. He swam with a cord attached to him, pulling his son in a dinghy. He rode on a custom-made bicycle with his son seated in a special seat in front of him. He ran while he pushed his son in a specially designed wheelchair. And they completed the race together. It touched me very much to see a father loved his child so much that he risked his life and went through so much. And all this is because of a promise made by a father who decided to love his child as he is.

At the end of the clip, this verse was shown: I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me.

My tears just couldn't stop flowing after it. I guessed my current state of mind and heart had been given some rest and assurance. Though I still felt a little unbalance emotionally but generally better. Well, we all make decisions everyday. And each decision marks a new start. Facing uncertainty makes people vulnerable in many different ways.

Guessed I should stop here... Hahaha need to get some rest... Been real tired... Sometimes I just wished that I can put everything down and walk away... But life goes on... Haiz...