It's only Wed but I am already drained...

My emotions were real unstable last week and most people whom came into daily contact knew something was off. After the weekend, I thought things were getting better but I was proven wrong...

Well, overall, I had started to become hyper in my emotions. But under the mask, there is still something like depression or tiredness lurking under. Work is not helping as there were 3 urgent cases which I was involved in 2 on Monday, when the engine was not fully started. Got through it with some hiccups but that's not too bad, considering that half of myself was spirited away since morning;-)

What I dread is the disturbance it caused to my plans! The plan was to complete 3 things in this week, which was expected that the whole week will be more or less use up. But the whole of Monday was used up for those urgent cases and half of Tuesday was used up to wrap up loose ends. Thank goodness that I manage to speed up my work and I am more or less on schedule, just a little tight though ;-) I had started my 2nd item and by tomorrow afternoon, hopefully I can start my 3rd item.

Been thinking of going shopping or strolling some place where I am surrounded and yet be alone. Guessed I have not been spending much time alone nowadays. Maybe that's how the draining and depressed feeling came in. Small little things such as tipping over a cup of tea yesterday caused me to feel like crying. Things were just not right and I became upset enough to consume cake! Well, to some people it is comfort food but to me, it is a challenge. Rather it is a challenge to my digestive system. I "tortured" myself and end up feeling half sick till this morning.

And today, I thought of going to shop but I promised one of my colleagues that I will go to dinner. There was an instance that I wanted to just tell that person in the morning that I had something on but well, the thought didn't materialise. Now I seriously regret going for the dinner. The amount and type of food is upsetting my GI system... Haiz... Feeling very bloaded and uneasy. Hopefully, I will be able to shop over the next few days or at least spend sometime with myself. At least I know I won't be tempted to "torture" myself by compromising and eating stuff that I shouldn't. Most importantly, I can recharge :-D

I guess that's about it for now... Too tired in body, mind and soul to continue... Sometimes I just wonder what will happen if I just walk away from all and move elsewhere...