Ahhhh boss is back!!! N some thoughts about other issues...

SHE IS BACK!!! My nice mood is gone from the very moment I know she is back...

Well, my only consolation to is that I had already made plans to leave next year. Hope she will be surprise by it;-) And I find that repeating this works:

It is not worth it to let someone bad influence your good mood:-D

Hahaha I am getting more n more bored in this job... End yr bonus too attractive to give up, so basically bidding my time n waiting for more crap to happen... Den hopefully my plans for next year will materialise;-) Looking forward to it!

Thinking back, sometimes I wonder if I am just tired of my job or am I tired of Science as a whole??? Am I unwilling to leave my "comfort zone"??? Umm... well, the thought of putting a plug to something which I had been doing for the past 8 yrs (started Pure Science for my Os when I was 15) kept me in checked...

I had the passion for it when I first started it but it sort burn itself away slowly... Perhaps I just wanted to have basic knowledge in the area but not be a master in it... N the reason I kept questioning myself for my passion and willingness to commit, is simply because... I had given up 1 of my so-call talents which I had been developing it for abt 9yrs and done well by it prior to doing Science with more dedication...

I didn't have that much of doubt nor questions when I tuck it away... To be honest, I like it better den what I am doing now! There's this intimacy, this special relationship which I never quite develop with Science... Perhaps as 1 get older, there are more things to consider, more burdens, overall more checkpoints for an idea...

Hey actually, what's the worst thing that can happen when 1 loses something??? 1 gains something else, that's the answer :-D So I guess for now, I will just keep diving into my sea of thoughts and feelings... Hope that I won't get lost or get pressured by the vastness of it...